"Appreciate what you have. It was once one of the many things you prayed for."

another one bites the dust!

I PASSED THE SECOND HESI! Praise the Lord :) I'm so happy!

But then my teacher told me the last HESI which was supposed to be Monday morning would still be Monday morning...ONLINE. So we could do it at home. Meaning...I COULD HAVE GONE TO RESOLVED x_x omg..so sad...everyone is heading over there right now having fun and fellowshipping. ayyyyy so jealous. lol but then again, these last few weeks have been SO hard because I didn't even know if I would pass either of the HESI's. It's by God's grace I passed the first two. my goodness. I guess this weekend will consist of a lot of rest, cleaning my room, catching up on my reading (Bible and other books), and Kev and I are gonna be visiting the church we'll be getting married at on Sunday along with the reception site. It's gonna be a pretty chill next upcoming week. I'm so stoked! GOODBYE TERM 3! Time for my last term at American Career College. Praise the Lord it's almost over!

growth

after how many journals/diaries growing up, 1 Xanga, 2 livejournals, and this blogger....i can't believe what i used to be like! lol i sound so different. but anyways, i posted this twice and i still laugh when i read it:

The best of Jack Handey's Deep Thoughts:

5. Love can sweep you off your feet and carry you along in a way you've never known before. But the ride always ends, and you end up feeling lonely and bitter. Wait. It's not love I'm describing. I'm thinking of a monorail.

4. If a kid asks where rain comes from, I think a cute thing to tell him is "God is crying." And if he asks why God is crying, another cute thing to tell him is "Probably because of something you did."

3. Maybe in order to understand mankind, we have to look at the word itself: "Mankind". Basically, it's made up of two separate words - "mank" and "ind". What do these words mean? It's a mystery, and that's why so is mankind.

2. Anytime I see something screech across a room and latch onto someones neck, and the guy screams and tries to get it off, I have to laugh, because what is that thing?!

1. Sometimes when I feel like killing someone, I do a little trick to calm myself down. I'll go over to the persons house and ring the doorbell. When the person comes to the door, I'm gone, but you know what I've left on the porch? A jack-o-lantern with a knife stuck in the side of it's head with a note that says "You." After that I usually feel a lot better, and no harm done.

pleasant surprise

Today is Daddy's day, and I texted my popz to see if he wanted to hang out. It's weird bc I always have to initiate hanging out with that crazy man llol otherwise I can go 6 months to a year without seeing him (I've gone longer) but he's my dad and even though he's not around a lot I still love him a lot. I think at heart most women who have dads who are semi-present are Daddy's girls, and I consider myself that, though most of my life I've struggled with resenting him for his absence. Thank the Lord for the change that He brought into my life, two years ago I finally let go of all that anger and am able to be sweet to my Dad and our relationship is a lot better.

My dad texted me back and said "I suppose you wanna eat where Kevin works." I was like DUH. lol so we met up at BJ's and we saw Kev there and they shook hands and did what men do haha weirdos the last time i saw my dad was last month and that was when we told him kevin proposed, and a month before that when I sneakily told dad I craved BJ's but it was really so he could meet Kevin hahaaha no more running away, old man! We met up at BJ's and my dad started talking about he was researching places for my wedding reception and how he would cover most of it, and that he wanted it to be nice. i was like JIGGGGGA SAYYY WHAAAAAAAAAAAT??? Kev walked by and was ecstatic too, bc we both didn't expect my dad to be involved at all. My dad said (and this is the censored version, he is actually very crude and it's kinda amusing watching Kevin's awkward facial reactions to all his inappropriate jokes) "You know, I may be a jerk, but she's my only daughter." Kev and I already know the church we're gonna get married in, it's his uncle's church in El Segundo where he pastors. And Kev and I just thought we would rent some banquet hall and have the women make filipino food in our church (we already talked to Pastor Felix about that, since that's the way it was for Ann and Jason's wedding). I really expected something super simple, and it kinda made me sad bc my mom was REALLY sad about it. You know moms, they're all crazy and live vicariously through their daughters and want the best weddings lol so I felt bad for her, bc I dont care if I have a simple wedding. I can get married in a $20 dress from Forever 21 and be happy with eating at In-N-Out afterward, but I was also bothered bc obviously my mom cares about how the wedding will appear to her friends/coworkers/family and friends on Facebook from the Philippines...you know some maaaaaaaaajor CHISMIS will be happenin' lol but yeah, I told my dad that i was really happy he wanted to be involved! I was actually afraid he wouldn't come to the wedding. He was like "Ugh, I dont wanna go to your Christian ceremony stuff. I'll show up to the reception." and i was like "SORRY POPZ. you gotta walk me down the aisle remember?" and he rolled his eyes and continued talking about all his girlfriends and drama. Crazy old man!

Kevin started happily thanking my dad and was like "Oh man, I'm so happy I feel like calling you 'Daddy' right now!" and my dad was like "I'm not ready for that yet man" and we all started laughing hahaha

My family stresses me out a lot, but it's times like these where you see all the love and care that make me thankful. God's been so good in saving me and really just healing me from the past, and I hope that God saves all of them, especially my dad. I really love my dad. I know he loves me too, even though it's a weird kind of love lol

MAN o Man am I ready to get married! God is so good.

I've got another HESI coming up this week. Please pray for me. I just wanna pass this term and enter into the next last term of the program. YIPEEE!!!! Lots of studying but it's been a great year and I'm so happy. Praise God.

a HUMONGOUS sigh of relief

After praying and praying and praying and freaking out (haha) and studying for hours and hours and then having tons of friends pray for me, I passed my first HESI of the term today with a 74.9% (the passing is 75%)!!!!!! I passed RIGHT ON THE DOT!!! I cried and hugged the teacher hahahha I sound like such a wuss, but that's okay. I drove home and saw Darrel (I texted him and a buncha other buddy buds who prayed for me right after I passed and we praised God together!) and we were laughing bc I told him that I had never studied for anything as hard I studied for nursing school. After 4 years of high school, and 4 years at a university...it's not even close! And an LVN isn't even an associates degree, it's certification, so I can honestly say that I did not expect it to be this hard!!! MAN.

God is so good, I have never passed a HESI before. I had two HESI's the last two terms and failed them, and it never mattered to me because it was only a small percentage of my grade. But this term, the school changed the policy so that there would be 3 HESI's during my third term and it would be 40% (first HESI 15%, second HESI 15%, and last one is 10%) of my whole grade! I have two more to go, but I'm relieved because 15% of my grade is already taken care of. The worse that could happen if I still end up failing the term is that I would need to repeat the term, and possibly push back the wedding until after I finish. It's really nice too because I I just took a lot of time to prepare my heart that even if I was let down, to be grounded that God is good and He is faithful and His will would be done.....I've been on this plan to read through the Bible from beginning to end, and I'm in 2 Kings, and unfortunately I haven't been faithful to reading every day bc of nursing school. It's actually been a really tough 8 months because of distractions and busyness, but I'm trying to get back on track and am just thankful that God is faithful and teaching me new things everyday.

PRAISE GOD! I am so happy and relieved. 2 more HESI's to go. Please continue praying for me, I'm still gonna be studying for tons of hours to pass again. I am not naturally gifted at passing these tough tests (Darrel is, that PUNK) hahaha but yeah. It's really tough for me. I'm not a natural critical health care thinker! but anyway, God is good! PEACE OUT HOMESLICES.